An apology to House Malvici
Posted by Mabelle on 10/09/19
To my Peers of the Compact I write today seeking forgiveness for a series of mistakes I have made, mistakes that have hurt the honor of House Malvici and my own. If the gods are good, they will give me wisdom to do better in the future, and guide my words now so they can properly convey I am indeed sorry.
I never meant to insult anyone. I made a joke, one in poor taste, and sent a message to someone I thought to be a friend as to tease him. Upon realizing my words hurt Lady Thea Malvici, I panicked. I felt embarrassed and in a moment of very poor judgment and weakness, sought to divorce myself from the situation by lying. I am ashamed of it still. I thought to myself it was just a simple, white lie to undo the harm done, but it only made matters worse.
Since then, I have yielded to any demands of retribution solely by virtue of my shame. What was asked of me I gave, readily, and there is not a day that went by that didn't have me wishing I could take it all back. I paid in writ, I made apologies, and in the end I did not seek help to weasel my way out of this. I needed someone to hear, someone to help me understand.
And I do, now. Before Whispers, writ or apologies made in desperation, I should have taken the time to medidate upon this issue. Now that I have, I can say I am sorry. I allowed my dark impulses to make a hurtful situation so much worse. I am sorry I lied to try circumventing the situation. The Malvicis deserve much better.
If this is not enough, and only a duel will suffice, then I will go through that final step as well.
Lady Mabelle Laurent
--- Acheron Stance via Rhea ---
Thoughts and prayers.
I never meant to insult anyone. I made a joke, one in poor taste, and sent a message to someone I thought to be a friend as to tease him. Upon realizing my words hurt Lady Thea Malvici, I panicked. I felt embarrassed and in a moment of very poor judgment and weakness, sought to divorce myself from the situation by lying. I am ashamed of it still. I thought to myself it was just a simple, white lie to undo the harm done, but it only made matters worse.
Since then, I have yielded to any demands of retribution solely by virtue of my shame. What was asked of me I gave, readily, and there is not a day that went by that didn't have me wishing I could take it all back. I paid in writ, I made apologies, and in the end I did not seek help to weasel my way out of this. I needed someone to hear, someone to help me understand.
And I do, now. Before Whispers, writ or apologies made in desperation, I should have taken the time to medidate upon this issue. Now that I have, I can say I am sorry. I allowed my dark impulses to make a hurtful situation so much worse. I am sorry I lied to try circumventing the situation. The Malvicis deserve much better.
If this is not enough, and only a duel will suffice, then I will go through that final step as well.
Lady Mabelle Laurent
--- Acheron Stance via Rhea ---
Thoughts and prayers.