Written By Esoka
June 10, 2017, 12:18 a.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Wanting change is harder for me. I do not think all change is for the better. Forests burn and do not grow back swiftly, and sometimes their old beauty is lost forever. People you love die, or are gone from your life forever in other ways beyond reclaiming. Wounds heal but turn to scars that will never fade. The lives of good friends move farther and farther from yours. These are changes that are life, and I accept them, but I don't do it happily.
The demand of Lagoma is to take all changes, good and bad, and make yourself something better from them. Be greater. Accept the life you have, and do something vital with it. It is very hard. I feel the need to weep sometimes, for how hard it is.
Being prodigal is many things to me. But more than anything else it is, I think, the decision to change. I was one thing when I was just a daughter of the Greenwood tribes. I bent the knee to Riven fifteen years ago and became something else. I was just a girl then and did not understand the full weight of what I was doing. I know it better now. When I meet those who have recently bent the knee, they are wild and untamed and fierce in the ways and traditions of their tribes, in ways I am not anymore. I am not what I was then, and I miss that girl sometimes.
On the whole, though, I think I have changed for the better. I am proud to be a citizen of the Compact. There is respect for law here, for order, a unity of many peoples who've come together to make something better and stronger than they are apart. The things built here endure after those that made them are gone. I am part of that, and it is a good life.
I do wonder how much I've changed. How much the girl I was at fifteen would even recognize who I am today. The things I find myself wanting now, the things I think might make me happy, are different than what she thought she wanted.
I feel this place, and the people I meet in it, changing me still the more. I'm not sure what I will be at the end of summer, or autumn or winter beyond them. Something greater, I pray to Our Lady of Change. I will try not to fight against what the future would make of me.
Written By Calaudrin
June 9, 2017, 10:34 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Written By Rymarr
June 9, 2017, 10:20 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Written By Charlaine
June 9, 2017, 10:09 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Carita
Written By Charlaine
June 9, 2017, 10:06 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
I went for a walk along the beach, and breathed in the salt air.
It was a nice time in solace...
A new leaf unturned, old friendships renewed
Our Friendships today build the back of Arx tomorrow.
Written By Charlaine
June 9, 2017, 10 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Petal
Written By Alexis
June 9, 2017, 6:58 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Some of this instruction has come at the hands of noted luminaries. That, too, is a thing that is taking some getting used to. High Lords and Archlectors are no longer distant, almost mythical figures. They are right here, in the flesh. Human.
I do not envy their burdens.
Written By Narciso
June 9, 2017, 6:53 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
But please, set your fires! Division, that's what we need! We survived the Siege, we don't have anything else that could possibly require maintained unity.
But in regard to Thrax, I should point out that at least they sing when they work. More people should do that. Singing while working is good for the soul.
Going back to laughing now.
Written By Halsim
June 9, 2017, 6:15 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Each of the Realms has their own identities... their things that could easily be condemned... yet I don't see any of that when I read these journals. Instead, I just see more and more hate for a Realm others don't understand, and have to wonder how people would feel if their Realms were attacked, even after a compromise is reached.
Written By Narciso
June 9, 2017, 5:59 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Carita
Written By Ilvin
June 9, 2017, 5:20 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Written By Samantha
June 9, 2017, 5:13 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
If we do want to encourage further change, I suspect the way to do it won't be through condemnation of those who acknowledge it in a positive fashion, and continue to aid in further realization and share welcome as it occurs.
It is no crime to acknowledge an effort to be better, which in and of itself will encourage further consideration of reform. We can choose to pursue the positive and increase it in scope, or dwell on what was never done, or what was done wrong, and never take a single further step toward enlightenment.
I choose to walk the path.
Written By Carita
June 9, 2017, 5:09 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Narciso
Written By Narciso
June 9, 2017, 4:44 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Aureth
Do you hear it? A solitary voice, even as the crowd draws air to shout, cheer or scream. That voice? It's laughing.
That's me.
Written By Aureth
June 9, 2017, 4:35 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
I, too, was gratified and relieved that House Thrax has decided to no longer use the diseased bodies of infants as weapons against their fellow men. I was also very pleased to hear that Thrax now recognizes that flaying the skin from human bodies is unusually cruel, nasty and brutal, and shall not be included in the annals of their military punishments anymore.
I am so glad to join in those lauding House Thrax with laurels and accolades for stepping forward and acknowledging that disgusting barbarity is, in fact, disgusting barbarity, beneath the dignity of humanity, and stands against the honor of Gloria, the charity of Gild, and the righteous justice of the Sentinel.
I too shall pat them on the back and thank them for their recognition that flaying people alive is, in fact, a horrible act.
I am heartened that this decision comes so soon upon the heels of their recognition that women, in fact, count as people, and should be allowed such revolutionary rights as property and inheritance, in addition to doing all of the administrative and financial and legal work that they have been doing in the Mourning Isles for generations anyway.
I look forward to how impressed we shall all be when House Thrax makes its next revolutionary discovery.
Written By Inigo
June 9, 2017, 1:10 p.m.(8/14/1006 AR)
Written By Niamh
June 9, 2017, 9:41 a.m.(8/14/1006 AR)
I only pray that it is not like Downing Glen. I do not wish to become trapped by a bodiless evil once more. Though... I should ask Aislin if she can spare a tracker from the Society.
Written By Valery
June 9, 2017, 9:25 a.m.(8/14/1006 AR)
I don't even remember what did we talk about.
I probably shouldn't talk with people when I'm so sleepy...
Written By Edward
June 9, 2017, 9:01 a.m.(8/14/1006 AR)
Written By Sparte
June 9, 2017, 12:31 a.m.(8/13/1006 AR)
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